No Pain, No Gain

Well, I neither gained nor lost weight.  To me that is like tying the game.  I didn't win and I didn't lose.  I would rather have something to show for the past week, but it came back to my same issues with time, my love of food, and my life being a to do list.  How does taking care of myself not make it to the top of the list?  I don't think I have ever been this disgusted with myself.  The week started off with a food and exercise journal, but you know what threw me off?  Sleep.  I sleep terribly and when I sleep terribly, I eat terribly and my exercise goes out the window.  When did insomnia become my norm?  I cannot get comfortable anywhere, yet I am exhausted most of the time.  Why can't I sleep?  Why can't I eat right?  Why can't I exercise more?  Are these familiar questions?  Are my struggles the same as every other woman over 40?  I am not looking to be a super model.  I want to feel better about myself and be healthier.  So, I'll keep trying and I'll keep putting all of my knowledge to work.  It is my hope that with the start of school and a routine, that I'll be able to put "health" back in the routine.